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Life is a BITCH

It’s okay Pam, there is always next time.

Hmm but then again, HOW MANY NEXT TIME DO I HAVE?

HMMMM. I wonder.

Seriously, have you ever put you heart and soul for anything that you set your eyes on yet at the end of the day you never achieve what you wanted?

Have you ever had this determination that you know that everything is gonna turn out fine but at the end of the day it’s the total opposite.

Conclusion, Life totally sucks at some point in life.

I woke up like uber early this morning was suppose to meet tisha at bouna vista at 9. We were both late! HA! I reached 5 mins pass 9 and Tisha reached like 20 mins pass 9. 

THERE WERE NO SEAT IN THE TRAIN!!! I wanted to sleep so badly. I swear I could almost sleep while standing!

I was telling Tisha at city hall and Raffles place we are sure to have seats because those are the stops where most people alight. 

Raffles Place : Not many people alighted. Told tisha, Nvm there is still city hall.


Until lavender PEOPLE STARTED ALIGHTING! So annoying!

I was dead tired, needed a seat badly to sleep and at the end of the day when I finally sat, I COULDN’T SLEEP!!!

Reached Changi Airport slightly pass 10.  The airport is freezing cold.  Saw ZX and Cheryl on the way.  Meet the rest outside Mr. Bean. 

Went upstairs to see Michelle off. 


Anyway all the best for her! (:


Went to poypoe (is that how u spell it?) for lunch

I’M OFFICIALLY IN LOVE WITH THEIR BISCUIT. Biscuit = Bread! It melts in your mouth!

Went ECP to cycle for a while . left tgt with the rest but meet parents at outram for dinner.

And then I’M HOME! (:


Till then


Hello guys I’m back! (:

I bet you must be thinking where is PAM!!

Haha! Had been busy with camp, projects and outings!

Omg this is like the last week of school vacation already! So fast! I have yet to have fun!

So many things happen within a short period of time… Hmmmm

Had Ambassadorial Camp: The juniors are all amazing! I LOVE GROUP 3!!! You guys are fantastic! (:

“Once an Apache, always an Apache”

Had dance sports camp: I was so tired because the last day of ambass camp was first day of dance camp! HAHA.

I have private lessons with CK too. Hmm.. I bet you must be thinking im freaking insane.

Camp after camp plus private lessons. HAHAH oh well.  Anyway this week NPDS formation had performance outside taka!

FUN! Is the only word I can describe.  Reached home pass midnight and mom was scolding me. =P hahaha oh well. 

Went to watch transformers 2 today! HAAH. I LOVE OPTIMUS PRIME & BUMBLEBEE!!! (:

Received Patrick from Kor. (: I’ll hug it to sleep every night. HAHAH! Obsession. Hur hur.

I was there for you.

I had always been there for you until the moment I realised that you only needed me when nobody wanted you. 

I was just a doll you had been using. 

Silly, naive & innocent, I believed that you would be there for me too, I let you use me unknowingly.

At every step of the way, I was there.

When you were bullied, I fed off bullies for you.

When you get shouted at, I was there to help you and at the end of the day I get shouted at as well.

When you were lonely, I was there to be by your side.

When you were in tears, I was there to comfort you.  Telling you that everything will be okay.

When I saved you from getting bang down by a car, you yelled at me asking me to return you $0.60 just because when I pulled you back, I knock your drink by accident.  This got me thinking, is your life just worth $0.60?  Instead of a thank you, I got yelled at by you. 

When you call me asking for help, I gave you my immediate attention even though I was busy rushing through my due assignments. 

But when things turn well for you and worst for me in the middle of secondary 2, where were you?

All I saw was you, standing at a far end of a corner showing me pity but never there to help.

I didn’t need pity from you.  All I needed was you to stand up for me.

What hurts me the most was you, joining them in the fun torture they did to me for the rest of sec 2.

When I was called name, where were you?

When I was in tears, where were you?

When I was outcast in class, where were you?

When I had no one to turn to, where were you?

Where were you, when I needed you the most.

Where were you?

 In sec 3 when I was finally free from all this torment, you approached me as if nothing had happen. 

I still remained as a great friend to you and didn’t put what you did to me by heart.  

Same as usual, I was always there for you. 

After sometime had pass, whenever I needed help or need your assistance, you always push and say your not free. So I just brushed it off.

Now when I look back and think, I felt real s.t.u.p.i.d. for some reason.

I had been believing in something that was never there at the first place.   

You know what I hate about you.  You’re such a Two-face.

I wished I had never met you but I’m glad I did.

I finally saw what kind of person you are.




Slept at 5 am this morning.

Share room with mom. Cousins stayed over.

Had Wii Marathon.

I stole my mom’s bloster so basically I hug 2 to sleep.

And she came in taking hers away from me. ==”

Woke up this morning still stoned.

Cleaned up, went to the hallway.

And aunt was like,” Girl come play mahjong left 1 more space.”

Stone and goggy, I just played and lost $10. ==”

What a way to start today.



Vacation here I come. 

But at the end of the day, my vacations are alwasy burnt away. Sigh~

Camps, Dance, Performance, Projects, Assignments, Driving, Heading out.

Weee~ Busy month for me again! Read the rest of this entry »

Hold me tight & never let go.

It means the world to me.

Sometimes I wonder how is it like to be returned with the same amount of feeling that I feel for the other party. 

I kind of learnt that this kind of feelings never happens for me. 

Oh well. I just go around pretending that its not for me. 

I appear not to be worried because I don’t want my friends to share my burden.

I put on my make up, put a smile on my face & each time they ask, I’ll just reply I’m fine. 

I’m laughing because no ones knows the joke is on me.

I’m draining inside with my pride and a smile on my face.  It’s not an easy thing to do.

Sometimes its to face the truth.  If he doesn’t want me, I’m not about to sit around and wait.

I have to let go.


1 word, 4 letters, unlimited meaning. 

OMG 1st paper is this sat! Class test tml!


So drained

So exhausted

I hate it when I’m like this.  Because at the end of the day, I always lose control over my emotions and they tend to rule over me. ==”

SMILE Pam (:

Everything is going to be alright. (:

Have faith in yourself dear. (:

To whoever you may be, Embrace me, hold me, even though I may say I’m fine.  Continue to hold on & don’t let go.


TIll then


I currentlyon a quiz spree! HAHA!


Pamela just took the “What hairstyle should you have” quiz and the result is pin straight hair with bangs.
You are some one who likes a look that can go from work to casual to party. You are cool with a great look and you like to be different look then others.
Pamela took the Personality traits by birth month quiz and got the result: August..
August: Loves to joke
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defense
Sensitive but not petty
Poor resistance against illnesses
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends
Pamela completed the quiz “What kind of mask do you wear?” with the result Beauty.
Your mask is Beauty. You are beautiful inside and out. You aren’t too aware of your beauty, although all the people around you are. There are times when you feel like you’re wearing a mask, but no one around you can notice the difference with or without it. You may feel vulnerable at times, but you usually get through it. You sometimes wish you had someone to help you through those tough times, but you are always hopeful and don’t give up easily. People who first meet you notice your beauty oat a glance, but most people notice it when they get to really know you..
Pamela took the Ultimate Tarot Card Reading quiz and got the result: The Lover..
The Lover: The Lovers is predominantly a card of the emotions, and it often portrays love that is divinely blessed, either by Cupid, an angel, or by God Himself. This seems to imply that nothing but good can come of this union, though with such a dualistic card there is always the potential for a sad conclusion, despite the best of beginnings. After all, love is like a flame because it can ignite the blaze of passion, but also because it can consume and destroy if used carelessly. Love is a wonderful thing, but profane or unrequited love has the power to tear families and lives apart. The Lovers has within it the potential for such love and we must always be cautious of it.
Pamela just took the “Your Dark Side” quiz and the result is Quiet.
Your dark side is soft and recessive. It is rarely visible. Usually you are the only one hurt by your dark side, because you keep to yourself in your darkest hour.
Pamela just took the “What can people tell from your eyes?” quiz and the result is Innocent.
You are innocent, people see you as a shining light. You are content and a glass half full kind of person.
Pamela completed the quiz “What type of chocolate are you?” with the result Plain milk chocolate.
Plain milk chocolate is sweet and creamy. Milk and sugar are added to the cocoa bean to make it taste light and flavorful. Your personality is much the same; you are sweet, kind, and light hearted. You have a great laugh, and others really enjoy being around you. You’re the life of the party, with an infectious personality- you always brighten the room when you enter. You have many friends and are a social butterfly..
Pamela Discovered About Love & Life via Day of Birth!
Story about Pamela’s Love & Life! are :

You were born on 12th day of August, Sunday.

Your Life : You are friendly, humorous and full of energy. You are open-minded and do not care for minor details. Your weak point is your hot temper.

Your Love : You are willing to start off in one-sided love affairs because you strongly believe that you will eventually win his/her heart. On the other hand, once you are together, you always want to do things your way, which is often the fire starter. You usually run in and out of love quickly.

Pamela just took the “what type of dancer are you?” quiz and the result is your lyrical!.
To be a lyrical dancer you have to know how to move to the lyrics and pace yourslef and make sure you don’t speed up. You are flexible, very strong, and can pirouette around your friends until you pass out. You show lots of emotion in your dance.
Pamela just took the “Whats your passion?” quiz and the result is Dance.
You’re energetic, fun-loving and bubbly. You need a way to express yourself in a way that allows you to move.
Pamela just took the “Which element are you?” quiz and the result is Water.
Water is the element of change. The people of water are capable to adapting to many things. They have a deep sense of community and love that holds them together through anything. Water is usually related to being good, impressionable, gentle, sympathetic, sensitive, and selfless.


Till then


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